after midnight

We build up what we build up. And we tear down what we tear down. What we build up in our lives takes prominence, and what we tear down goes to ruin.

We are the ones who do this and no one else. Who we are is what we have built up. And who we are is what we have torn down. This is no cause for lamentation or rejoicing. For we are where and who we are. And we even now build up what we build up and tear down what we tear down. We are shaping ourselves each moment.

And yet if we are trying to shape ourselves into something, we have not sense enough to know the shaping.

Contemplation is key here. Con-templum-ation. The templum is our capacity, vast open space in which we sit quietly and open and listen, no agenda of our own. It is in the realm of the templum that we let go of all we are, all we have made of ourselves and listen to the Word, our Source. ("In the beginning was the Word.") When we disappear, we can hear. We open with great room. We become the templum. the temple, the place and space of capacity and great understanding.

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2:15 a.m.
Awoke with these words reverberating:
BEHOLD! I WILL NEVER LEAVE THEE NOR FORSAKE THEE.
My heart calm and open and knowing this eternal truth.

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We can live now as if we have already dropped the body. It is a matter of identification. At our core is our Source, the Mystery which we cannot even begin to imagine. And yet is so familiar, so family-iar. Through quietness and calm and ever-increasing confidence (con-fidence: telling all, disclosing all, and listening to our Source's Disclosures), we identify with, become identical to the Source who is our core. We have already moved to "the other side," because "the other side" and "this side" are not different. This is not religion. This is direct experiential knowledge. We know as we are known.