knowing as you are known

"Where individuality ends, there God begins. God wants nothing more of you than for you to go out of yourself and all individuality and let God be God within. The most insignificant individual structure that takes form in you is as big as God. How is that? It completely obstructs God. Once the structure appears, God and all his Godhead disappear. Once the structure is transcended, God enters. . . He reveals himself in the soul in boundless wisdom, which is himself. . . " -- Meister Eckhart

Consider yourself as consciousness, as awareness. Open to your being as consciousness in process, changeable, ever-changing.

Consider that you have choice and that you choose what fills your consciousness -- now this, now that, now the other. As your attention shifts from here to there, and there to here, the consciousness that is you is transformed.

When you both will and allow yourself to be still, when you allow your attention to rest on one thing and one thing only, one simple focus (a flower, a cloud, a tree, a word, a sound), the consciousness that is you becomes clear and still and open.

This quiet stillness, this quiescence is as far as many meditative practices go. Our detached and unlimited will to know allows going further. When we drop all identification, knowledge and wisdom are revealed. We know and we are known.

We disappear. Only God, only the Godhead remains. This is grace, the grace of the One who breathes us. Unlimited comprehension opens.

will and wisdom

"No one is so foolish as not to desire wisdom, yet why do so many remain ignorant?" asked Eckhart. Because, first, they forsake their unlimited and detached will to know and think instead that reality is something to behold. -- C. F. Kelley

We ditch our will to know the Ultimate, divert will's waters into the irrigation of our irritations and their soothings, flood our plains of stupor with tepid motionless waters.

We forsake our precious unlimited will to know and hang around beholding life, waiting to die, forgetting that in doing so we are already dead.

We are ignore-ant because we give up, surrendering our will to superficial blatherings, watching our life go by as just another reality show.

Meister Eckhart (1260 - 1328) was so far ahead of the generally accepted learning curve that we are still catching up with him. He incorporated all the major thinkings on earth at that time and came to this conclusion: if we keep knocking on heaven's door, it will open. But not unless we knock and keep on knocking.

If we want wisdom (instead of mere knowledge), we must use our "unlimited and detached will to know." We possess, we are given, we are unlimited will. And it takes unlimited will to pursue and open to wisdom. We've got what it takes.

But in opening to wisdom, our will must be detached -- not attached, no clinging, no velcro-brain. How can we be filled unless we stay empty?

Second, wisdom cannot be acquired without disciplined intellection sustained by divine grace.

"Oh God! Does that mean I have to think!? This will thing sounded okay, but this is starting to sound like work (shudder). How come the universe can't just pop my head open and pour some wisdom in? And discipline! Don't even begin to speak to me of discipline!"

Discipline means to become a disciple, a follower of wisdom. It doesn't mean wearing a hair shirt or flogging oneself with brain-cracking whips. Disciplined intellection means to turn one's attention to higher and deeper understandings and to keep it there, unwavering. To open our heartminds to that which breathes us, sustains us, gives us life.

This is where the Overdrive kicks in. When we knock with unlimited and detached will to know, the Door opens. And keeps opening. I find this astounding. We are born to open to wisdom. And the Universe is in our favor.

subjecting ourselves to objection

When living in the Energetic Mode, living as Energy, as the LifeForce that we are, we live as pure Awareness, and not as "objects" of awareness that we cling to. The objects are the sites of our objection. We object to the free flow of Awareness. We settle.

We settle Awareness into one or a few "spots." We "object" if these spots are not re-cognized by "others," who also have their favorite spots upon which Awareness stops. Pit-stops of consciousness which become holy shrines.

This stopping of Awareness is perhaps more easily seen in the phenomenon described as getting "stuck" on someone. Awareness is no longer free-flowing, but continues to return to the "object" of one's affections. One thinks one cannot live without what one is stuck on. Hypnosis. Self-hypnosis. Puppy love.

Don't laugh. You are probably doing the same. You have your favorite pit-stops of Awareness, your ideas dipped in bronze dangling from your consciousness's rear-view mirror for your perpetual contemplation and satisfaction (which you will defend with zeal if you sense scorn). You object. You "object."

When living as Energy, as the continuous unfolding of the LifeForce, we do not "object" nor do we "subject" everything to our "selves." All action is the action of the LifeForce that we are.

What is called "normal" on earth today is a consciousness that is pitted with stops and clings and stucknesses. Pure Awareness is considered, if at all, as not possible.

And yet, in our finest moments, we humans are pure Awareness.

one is not supposed to speak of these things aloud

One is not supposed to speak of these things aloud. Too easily misunderstood. Folk have been killed, and perhaps even worse, set on a pedestal (a slower form of death). But how is transformation in human consciousness to occur without pointing to the existence and nature of the transformations?

I speak in words that make sense to me, that describe the consciousness that I am as clearly and succinctly as possible:

I am the Lifeforce (Spirit) opening into and as the densest of matter. I am an invasion, an infusion. I feel and see and know and am the vast infinity of Spirit, opening into, as, and out of dense matter, this physical world here. I am a merge and an emerging. I am an outbreathing of Spirit into the realm of and as Man. I am complete subjectivity with no object. I am an embodying of Spirit.

This is my conscious awareness. This is my experience. This is who and what I am.

mage-ician

I call a world into existence with each thought.

Each thought is followed by another thought so rapidly
that this world I continue calling into existence
appears to have continuity.

A rapid succession of depressing thoughts creates a depressing world.
A rapid succession of happy thoughts creates a happy world.
Both are conjurings of thought.

Thoughts are habit-forming.
I create the same world over and over.
I wear this world like a habit.

When I open beyond thought, without thought,
I am neither this nor that.

creating a head on top of your head

Some look to "getting rid of the ego." When attention is focused on "an ego to be rid of," one creates "an ego to be rid of." One is creating what one wishes to annihilate.

The popular conception is that one is doing this in order to be "enlightened," that "getting rid of the ego" is necessary to be "enlightened." Now one is in double trouble.

When attention is focused on being "enlightened," one creates some anticipated state of consciousness out there somewhere in the "future," wherever that is. One is now creating "an ego to be rid of" and an "enlightenment to become" and a "future." No wonder Zen masters hit people in the head!